The former UFC bantamweight champion opened up to ESPN about her loss to Holly Holm at UFC 193 on November 14, saying: “I’m just really f*#&ing sad.” Ramona Shelburne of ESPN interviewed Rousey at her Venice, California townhouse the day after Thanksgiving; she notes that Rousey was very quiet, “She speaks slowly, letting each word hurt.” The fighter shares with Ramona Shelburne of ESPN, “I need to come back. I need to beat this chick. Who knows if I’m going to pop my teeth out or break my jaw or rip my lip open. I have to f@$&ing do it.”

Rhonda Rousey became a household name — she has a mural of herself on the Venice Beach boardwalk, which was painted after her 34-second win over Bethe Correia in August. That fight was the third straight fight she had won in under a minute. Ramona says, “Rousey is not going to want to see that mural for a while. Aside from a little puffiness in her bottom lip, she still looks like Ronda Rousey. She just doesn’t much feel like her.”

With all that said, Rousey has taken a break from the technology driven world, “I’ve turned off my phone. I haven’t looked at it. I’ve just been having long conversations with Mochi [her 7-year-old Argentinian Mastiff].” Trying to keep her spirits up, Rousey shares, “I was thinking, ‘On the bright side, I’m more like crushed idealism and sardonic sense of humor now.” She’s in denial about her loss to Holm and she keeps replaying the hit that she took in the jaw — “It was like a dumbed-down dreamy version of yourself making a decision… I was just trying to shake myself out of it. I kept saying to myself, ‘You’re OK, keep fighting. You’re OK, keep fighting.”

And she does admit about feeling embarrassed by how she fought, telling Ramona, “I wasn’t even f*&$ing there.”

There’s no question that Rousey is a talented athlete, considered one of the best and being noticed by dominant male athletes like J.J. Watt and Kobe Bryant. She’s even been viewed as “a new feminist icon,” when she took on Floyd Mayweather outside of the ring to the “do-nothing bitches.” 

And aside from fighting, Rousey has made a few big screen appearances: The Expendables 3, Furious 7Entourage, and several others. She says, “Maybe I can’t do it all before my prime, before my body is done. But f*&K it, maybe I can.”

It’s also well known that Rousey isn’t afraid to cast her opinions, addressing body shamers by saying in an episode of UFC’s “Embedded” that aired before the Correia fight, “I think it’s hilarious if people say that my body looks masculine. I’m just like, ‘Listen, just because my body was developed for a purpose other than f&*#ing millionaires doesn’t mean it’s masculine.’ I think it’s femininely badass as f*&k because there’s not a single muscle on my body that isn’t for a purpose. Because I’m not a do-nothing bitch. It’s not very eloquently said, but it’s to the point. And maybe that’s just what I am. I’m not that eloquent, but I’m to the point.”

Rousey became invincible… that is up until the Holly Holm fight. That leaves us and Ramona to ask the question, “What happened to the Rousey myth of invincibility and what really ended that night in Australia?” The fighter’s answer, “I feel like I’m grieving the death of the person who could’ve done that. I always say you have to be willing to get your heart broken. That’s just what f&*#ing happens when you try.”

So after her 15-hour flight home from Australia, TMZ caught her hiding her face in the airport and the next day she drove to Texas with her boyfriend, Travis Browne. But if she won the fight, Rousey was suppose to celebrate with a giant batch of chicken wings and cider beer in Melbourne, and then fly back and spend Thanksgiving with her sisters.

And as of now, the UFC has set a possible date for a rematch between Holm and Rousey

"I'm tired of seeing girls that shut up and have no ambition being idolized."Win or lose, Ronda Rousey remains real:

Posted by ESPN on Tuesday, December 8, 2015